I’m so tired.
I feel I cannot go on.
I’ve worked so hard.
Fought for so long.
Yet feel I have accomplished so little.
I lean hard into the winds that oppose me
And swim strong against the current.
Yet my persistence is met with resistance.
So I surrender all to You.
I do not give up.
I simply surrender
All that I fight against and
All that I believe to be true.
I surrender my need to control.
I surrender my drive for perfection.
I surrender my way and my will.
I am humbled by my journey
Which dutifully reminds me
I am not the omniscient one.
So I surrender to You.
My thoughts, which hold me victim,
My negativity, which holds me captive,
My doubt, which binds me to darkness, and
My fears, which bind me to my ego.
I ask that You strengthen my faith.
I ask that You re-establish my trust.
I ask that You re-build me so that
I may create in Your name instead of my own.
Because I know the obstacles
I face are of my own creation
And Your way for me is an effortless existence.